There has a lot been going on in my life recently and sometimes I just didn't have the energy (physical and mentally ^^") to sit down in front of the PC and write a blogpost. Also I wasn't really happy in the last months how my blog "evolved"...because I don't just want to throw outfitposts on you...somehow I want my blog to have more meaning than just showing my vanity ;) Therefore on top of my "life crisis" xD I also did some really hard thinking on how I could change my blog to something more meaningful for me and others...and sad thing is, I haven't really come to a 100% perfect conclusion yet but I think I found my direction...but more on that in my 1st "new" post some time in the future *hahaha* ...on top of it all I am just lazy ^^"
Also I decided to revive my youtube channel and hopefully I can film a new video on the long weekend with the help of my boyfriend *O* I have so many ideas and things that I want to talk about...not only did I go to Japan in April and got inspiration there but I already had so many plans in my head BUT never had the energy *points up* to sit down and do it...but not anymore d^^b I can't sit around forever and wallow in my selfpity and anxiousness~
Also if you want more and regular updates on what I am doing you can still add me on facebook and instagram. I am posting updates from my quirky mind there pretty often :3
And to make this post a little more colorful have some pics from my weekend ;)
Some time ago I was tagged by the lovely Jade from Princess Snow White and now I finally have the time to answer her 10 questions :3
The rules:
- Answer the questions given to you.
- Ask 10 questions yourself and give the tag to other blogger :)
1. What is your first memory?
*thinks* Okay, this may sound creepy because actually most people have their first memory only after the age of four but my memory is before that. I remember being bathed in a yellow bathtub for little babies and my thoughts were something on the line of "This person definitely is not my mommy!". Seriousely, I don't think that such a memory is even possible but this is the first memory I can think of *ahahaha*
2. Did you experience bullying?
Unfortunately yes, I even skipped school because of that and at one point I had to go to counselling sessions - but fortunately this is in the past now. When I think about why people bullied me I somewhat understand why they were doing it [not that I do approve of bullying in any way]...they might have been even more insecure that I was and well, when I was in school anime and manga were still considered childish or gross. Nothing a normal person would read or watch. They just didn't understand I think. But anyways, this lies in the past now...and I have met many awesome people in the past years that are as crazy as I am and who made my life worthwhile <3
3. Is there a song you can't bear to listen to?
*thinks* Well, I would have to say "Tears" from X-Japan...I love this song to pieces but everytime I hear the first tune I instantely start to cry...it is such a beautiful song but it is hard for me to listen to it ^^"
4. What are you bad at but would love to be good at?
Too many things *ahahaha* But I would have to say knitting...I know how to do it but I am not patient enough to get one piece done ^^"
5. What kind of food do you absolutely dislike?
Tomatoes...they are so slimy @.@ I can eat tomatosoup and everything made out of tomatoes though...I only can't stand the raw vegetable >.<
6. How much make-up do you call your own?
You can have a look here xD I think it is waaaaay too much but I can't stop myself from buying new makeup *ahahaha*
7. Do you like parties?
Hm, it depends on my mood...sometimes I really like to go out dancing and have a great time partying but sometimes I want a chilled evening with my friends, watching a movie or having some cocktails :)
8. If you had the chance what would you change in this world?
Well, the list would be endless...but well, I would want the everyone would understand each other and conflicts would be solved without war. Every human is different and has different views on life...we should accept those differences and accept the people as they are without trying to change them.
9. Who is your rolemodel?
My grandmother because even though her life wasn't easy all the time she kept looking forward. She showed me that you can be a strong woman and still be graceful in everything you do. I miss her so so much but in my heart she will always be a part of me ^^
10. How tall are you?
I am 163cm tall...I think that is a pretty good size, right? :3
And here are my questions:
1. What was the first book you read?
2. Who is your favourite villain?
3. Which fictional character can you relate to most?
4. What is the worst movie you ever watched?
5. If you could timetravel, where and when would you go to?
6. What is your biggest dream for the future?
7. What is your favourite piece of art? Why?
8. Are you supersticious?
9. Hello Kitty or Rilakkuma?
10. What is your favourite color?
"It is not because things are difficult that we do not dare; it is because we do not dare that they are difficult."
- Seneca
I think many of you heard this quote before and you might ask "Why on earth is she posting it here?"...Well~ for me this quote is really special and I try to live my life with this quote in mind every second BUT it is not that easy to live like that. Because of this tiny and rather annoying voice in your head called "reason" or "common sense" we often give up on things without even trying just because society is teaching us that it is impossible anyways. Therefore growing older and turning into an adult we often throw away dreams or fantasies that are very dear to us only because society tells us that it has no use anyways. But I am asking: Isn't it just the fear that we might fail that lets us throw away precious dreams so easily? Sure, with time we often fail, we might be on the verge of giving up BUT who tells us that these failed attempts are in vain? I decided that even if I fail over and over again I will not give up on my dreams...because as Seneca says things will be out of reach forever if we are not trying to grab them. My advise for you -and probably mostly for myself- don't give up on things just because people say you can't do it...the only one who can stop you is yourself. So, as long as you believe in your dreams: GO FOR IT!
I just took some pictures of my room for you today...at first I wanted to do a wardrobe post but than I decided not to do because at first I need a "concept" *hahaha* Well...and as I have an account on poupee you can find my whole wardrobe on there ;) So here are just some pictures of my little princess-room...I am pretty proud of how my room turned out and I have to admit, I want to show it off to you *hehehe*
1.+2. My wardrobe :3 I love it so much but it was hell to put it together...and I don't mean buying all the dresses xDDD
3. Yes~ I am a fangirl...I love to collect all kind of figures :)
4. Nessi lives beside my bed *haha* A present from a friend who visited Scotland in spring <3
5. Big cup I found at Nanu Nana for less than 2 Euro <3
6. One of my favourite books ever <3 <3 <3 And a lantern I bought at Ikea ^^
